10. A Little Bit Down
Today felt a little like standing on the edge of a ravine, looking out over the vast empty landscape of an indeterminate future. Am I strong and brave enough to jump to a new reality? Am I ready to really be retired? Plus there is so much work still left to do. Every day I clean another mess in the house (today I cleaned off the south counter in the kitchen), but is that my future? Is that who I am: the cleaner of messy counters?

"When the bees are gone"